26 JUNE 2011

Well this was a memorable day of my life.
How i spent the previous night i better know. :) .It was exciting me the whole time. I even woke up early and got ready the following day. I had to visit my bestfriend "mishika's" place.Really this damn excitement was just making me go crazyyy...i waited for my uncle who was going to drop me there. I somehow reached her home.She was waiting for me outside. Her brother (little akshat) was too there. We then went upstairs . I was seriously feeling shy , wierd & excited as i was going to meet her mom first time. really enjoyed alot.

Then the fun started after all those introductions.I was served with various eatables , softdrink and yeah my favourite cheese sandwiches,,, yummm...!!!
And you know what guys!!!
I didnt bother where i am or what everyone will thing...i just started eating like a "riff-raff"(bhukkad in hindi)...hehehe,,,:D...in love eating ..yeah !
I really loved her siblings company(akshat and anushka). Her bro kept asking me wierdo questions and we 3 were laughing out loud and rolling on the floor like hell !
Slowly , the clock struck 12 & 1 hour passed. Really time moves so fast .Then we four went out and had great fun in a park over there. We even climbed the tall water tank stairs.I was afraid but it was really damn adventurous.. We even baked cake , cocoa cake which which was too tasty and yeah i even got to know the recipe...i'm bad in all this baking work..:P..even cooking too.
We even had great fun in her car...she know driving n we moved round and round..
Then we both went to the club to have fun but then the rain started and suddenly the weather was too unfavourable..my gosh !!! it was the first heaviest rain of the season in kanpur.. We had to stay there for about 2 hours and it became dark, clock stoke 8 !
I was really tensed as i had to get back home but how..:(
Then we decided to ring up my mom and mishika talked to her and asked whether i can stay with her that night or not . She said yes !
But still i kept calling her to confirm about this and later got scolding . huh !
Then we had dinner . After that till 1:30 am we kept completing our computer notes. After that when we were bored of it we decided to do some facebooking but the crappy network wasn't in our favour. We decide to lie down and sleep but we didn't..we kept talking the whole night and when it was morning we didnt know!
Then early morning we went for a walk to the canal(ganga river) .. wow!!! The cool breeze, fast flowing water,the dizzy voice of current flowing through the high-tension wires.All was awesome. It was like a dream come true as i always dreamt of being there early morning. Then we returned and she dropped me home finally.
Ah ! really i wasn't feeling to leave her at all but seriously , thanks to you lord for giving us such a great day !
I REALLY MISS YOU !!!!

Misunderstandings resolved....

Misunderstanding are insects...or vertebrates which just need a lilttlemost leak to enter and just burn a properly working system..like we have watched in the movie "the thaw"...they are just leeches..
We are normal beings... we are never ready to look at the positive sides when the negative thoughts win our brains ... that's the fact...everyone might have faced like me.
And me..don't ask..i'm myself a shop of misunderstandings....huh !!!
On 28th after about a year i talked to my bestfriend...meghna...really shes means alot to me..
but since i left my school...we both started having different opinions about each other though on each side opinions were same....i spent months crying...and then realized may be i'm of no importance to her..but day before yesterday she made me realize again the i was wrong and even she realized that she was wrong...everyone has to face such times in life...

MY FAV SONGS....

BRYAN ADAMS-HERE I AM

DELTA GOODREM-LOST WITHOUT YOU

DIDO-LIFE FOR RENT

Please don't try to understand me...

at times its like:

some are hurt to what i say

some may laugh to what i say

but its all because i don't know how to say.

Fear of expressing myself and my feeling always stops me because i can see myself getting hurt but not to what i feel for some people who are very dear in my life..just wanna say..i'm true.. my feelings are true...atleast true to myself...
i broke many hearts with my rude behaviour but not a single time i did it intensionally :(
 if i'm mad for people i accept but if my thinking is mad then just wanna say "man you go to hell" !!!

A WALK TO REMEMBER

 

      JUST LOVE THIS MOVIE...ITS REALLY CHANGED THE WAY <3 ...I THINK...<3

WHO IS HAVING THE ANSWERS !!!!

What happens when situations become tough like an iron ?
No one can break its strength but ya if the person facin the dilemma loses confidence, then he/she breaks into pieces which are hard to mend.
For me its just an imagination or say just a feeling which i'm expressing but for many its a reality, a real life experience.
How a lady sacrifices her life for her family, her husband , in-laws, children ,without caring about her intrests, dreams , happiness.But noone gives respect to what she has done, what she has sacrificed, what she has missed !
The worst part in her life is when the ones for whom she sacrificed are making a fuss, not understanding her importance, just making her realize that it was her job whatever she did and has to do.
Tis then when she starts searching for a space where she lives for herself, fulfils her dreams which were left behind . But when she finishes her search , she has lost the intrest !
She then expects from her children. Sometimes some do understand this & sone don't.
she's just lonely then !

SO :
      RESPECT HER, LOVE HER , SUPPORT HER , UNdERSTAND HER, .
She will raise high and will proud !!!!!

Long time back !!!

Well , i am back.. I just took a short break but really missed it so much. I don't know why but there is a spell binding connection between me and my writing . Its a small little whole world where everything and everyone is good. No expectations. Else in real life all expect some or the other little-big thing from us.

Really in past 15 days , i experienced such things which i never thought i will do and it would cause so hard.. Things like pain of missing someone, knowing the truth that you cannot live without some people,getting connected to nature , falling in love with its beauty. How the feeling of nature's innocence strikes one mind, how to know people around you whether new or old, etc. etc. The list seems to have no end !!!

The worst part was to miss my dearones. Really i missed my sister mishika. Means, i never thought i would miss her so much. She kept messaging to let me know that she is missing me hard and i[me] am not missing her atall. But me n my loneliness only knows the truth.People may call it a strongest or my weakest point that i am not capable of expressing my feelings so finely. I sometimes regret and sometimes feel proud of it.
Ah! such a dilemma. I missed my bestfriends pulkit and sarim. They too make an important page of my life,,,Really missing someone is really hard...Like i hate missing my dad . He lives in mumbai for his job. I wish he was with me here !

This one's specially for u 3-mishika,sarim n pulkit ;
"Every morning the thought for you striked my mind,
 i can never forget you guys.
Thousands of people came & went away,
all were marked in the page of my book.
But you guys have been steppled by god in the pages of my book !"

In the last few days, i experienced my brothers love & care for me , specially my little brother . Really wish he was with me here. Though i'm his elder most sister though i love him the way my mother does to me.
I also came across many truths , many thoughts, which in some or the other way taught me some or the other thing. Well i'm taking it too long . I will cut short.
TO GOD ;
Thanks for such a wonderful experience....<3

LUNAR ECLIPSE !

A total lunar eclipse will take place on June 15, 2011. It is the first of two total such eclipses in 2011, the second occurring on December 10.


This is a relatively rare lunar eclipse where the center point of Earth's shadow is on the disk. The last time a lunar eclipse was closer to the center of the earth's shadow was on July 16, 2000. The next central total lunar eclipse will be on July 27, 2018.

Visibility
It will be visible completely over Africa, and Central Asia, visible rising over South America, western Africa, and Europe, and setting over eastern Asia. In western Asia, Australia and the Philippines, the lunar eclipse will be visible just before sunrise.
 

Lunar year (354 days)
This eclipse is the center of five lunar eclipses in a short-lived series. The lunar year series repeats after 12 lunations or 354 days (Shifting back about 10 days in sequential years). Because of the date shift, the Earth's shadow will be about 11 degrees west in sequential events.

This one is for u .... for my someone special... sisso !!!

Every morn, sun may not strike my eyes,
But the thought of being with you
Gives a desire to my life.
Hope you knew,what you mean to me
You are an angel , making me fly high so free.
You inspire me with the strength of your words,
 I get myself ready to win the battle, with a shield and a sword.
You teach me to fly high like an eagle,
But then i feel , will i be able?
I feel to express all my hearts elation,
But i'm afraid, may be you feel the itchy irritation.
I wish i could give you 24hrs dedication,
But other important factors seem to be an interruption.
You taught me to laugh again, and live the way i was.
I feel i've made a lot of gain,than the least i made a loss.
Have no expectations from you,
May be my soul flies to the blue.
Though i'm alive or dead,
Will always make roundabouts around your head.
Let my heartbeat stop for you,
I will be happy atleast i could be of use.
I promise to walk with you ,
Letting the strongest storm blew.
Ah!its hard for you to believe
For me its such a relief !
I will always lie low to see you high,
I will never let you cry.
God knows how much i love you, sisso !
You showed path to my passion
And now i'm working for its invasion.
May the circumstances take us far,
But our hearts will always be with each other.
I love to make you smile,
Oh gosh! anyone knows?
It is a big crime.
I wish to laugh at what i cracked,
But tears have captured my eyes.
Still i have lot to say,
But have less time to stay.
Ur friendship is an unbreakable bond,
Noone can break , not even our james bond (our god).
Let all fights and grudges take place,
Let HIM know , our relation is full of grace....


luv u sisso