Saturday, April 26, 2014

Nostalgic

Hi,
writing after a long time... thanks to my friend Manas , he reminded me that I have a blog !


Many things happened overtime , good & bad both!

I learnt so many things
Well , the most important thing that happened in my life is the 'Trekking Expedition'.
That made me walk one step further towards my dream. Everyone dreams to have a great job , life , etc. etc. , but definition to my dreams is totally different.
Even i haven't ever realised that what I consider as my dream is it one , or still i have to discover the real one. Whatever it is, what matters to me is the present.

I won't say that I don't think about future. I do! That's a normal behaviour of a human being , to consider our future while one thinks about the present.
While facing dillemas I reach to this above stated situation but at the end I think of living my present.

Yeah so I was talking about my Trekking Expedition to Himalayan range, that was in Himachal Pradesh.
There were moments of "deja vu" ... where I lived my dreams of being in a forest , that canopy in the forests , etc. I made great friends . I witnessed the start of a beautiful love story, got that pamper from a big brother and what. I was totally living in my dream. Having lunch amidst the forest , sitting by the side of a waterfall in which chilled water from the north was flowing . What else can you imagine of !
That was the moment I became myself .
Earlier I used to live , or you can say did tend to live someone else's life by taking suggestions ,etc. I was lacking that confidence withing me. But now I am confident enough to stand alone for myself. I learnt so many other small things.
After returning I learnt the art of not expecting things to happen, which ultimately made me realise that things that are meant to happen will certainly happen, whether one wants it or not.
Life didn't stop but I became part of a group with dozen members that did become an important part of my book of life.

I started with my schedule and guess what ! a big challenge was waiting for me , Marketing project presentation. That was one of those big things happening in the 3 yrs of my diploma course.
I worked hard, day an night . I will never forget how 3 of my dearest friends helped me to cross this bridge very succesfully.
 Manas , Forum & Santosh , thanks for all your support.. Well I need to mention that even forum was a part of it and I won't step back to accept that she was a big confidence factor in the situation.
Thanks from the depth of my heart. After all the hardwork , we were rewarded.
I do agree i bitched about some bitches but on the long run I again realised that world is full of people who'll come, take credits and walk away , but those who realise and feel the victory lasts forever. I want to be a part of them. We stood first. That trophy is the first real trophy of my life.
I always dreamt of that!


Then again after a long time I visited my home.  I really enjoyed my vacation which I took on my own when I was missing some important classes!


These were the main things.
While in this long span of time, I discovered myself more deeply.
I learnt that there are many things I am capable of but lack of confidence is keeping me behing. There was a situation when I raised my voice in a protective manner infront of dozen unknown people. I understood that it is very easy to say Yes but saying No is one of the most difficult task. I understood very important thing that things done cosidering others happiness and not yours isn't a great thing. That's being coward.

I realised that I love a guy who isn't made for me, who isn't like me and who isn' t ready to do and except those small things that brings a smile on my face, who isn't considering me as an important priority. Truly speaking I was all heartbroken but again, my life didn't stop. I have the support of few very important people of my life, my maa, sister , forum, manas , santosh, mishika....these are few people who in their absence also tend to make me happy. That's the real meaning of happiness :)


Then one day me and Manas were discussing regarding our nearing future life where we'll have jobs and the negative vibes were surrounding us, but after a few weeks my cellphone blinked for a notification : " manas- i have my interview tomorrow"
that urge for happiness when you see your friend nearing to his dreams/ or can say the thing which he/she wants for that moment, the happiness and the joy in unexplainable.



These things alhtough explained in a very short manner have their own imporatce and taught me many lessons in their own way.

Preapring for my 4th semester exams & visitng bangalore for my dearest vatsav dada's marriage who's again gift from my trekking expedition..


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Tanjul Sarkar
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