Tuesday, May 29, 2012

brrr... tension free now !

hey ! i'm back.. see na i was so much tensed about my intermediate results ! but luckily i'm passed with 1st division :) i scored 74 % , though not as expected but still i'm happy because i was damn horrified for physics but then i scored such that i passed ! :) hahaha...really i didn't want to get back to my hometown , kanpur !
Nw i've to look ahead for my future life n my career ! may god bless me :)

Sunday, May 27, 2012

getting goosebumps....

Hey friends.. m back.. m ... u can say so excited plus anxious plus frightened as my 12th class(intermediate) results are going to come by 11 am today ! don't know what i'm gonna score.. what others are gonna score.. what will happen and what will not ... uff.. wish me luck my readers ! :/

Saturday, May 19, 2012

an awesome evening...

Day was quite a bore but then this is what i've decided.. means i am the only one to choose a lonely life..but then in the evening one of my dads friend visited us . He is an actor , really an awesome guy and one of dads junior who was going to accompany us to a bengali theatre ! earlier i as just so very silent but then he started to talk..he was too a great guy... really we reached ravindra natya mandir in mumbai..it was great . earlier i wasn't enough excited but then as soon as the play was about to start i felt that excitement within me as for the first time i was going to watch a play that too of my mother language "bangla" !
it was awesome.. kind of an unsuccessful love story , really a nice one . though in between i got kinda bore but i really enjoyed .. here really such opportunities are great ! was feeling a bit closer to my culture and religion. the play troop was basically from bangladesh ! all the audience were bongs only.. different people... i loved watching...


its high time and me tired too.. cya soon,,, feeling sleepy lolzzz.. !

Saturday, April 28, 2012

thought ... for a while... wish others thought the same

heya , its all about means what i wanna feel and what i don't ... the world seems to be progressing , no doubt but has anyone ever thought whats the actually happening in return for this progress.. i also know that i've a meagre majority of people who think like me.. means ofcourse i'm not against but the thing is that why , why the hell bad things are happening too ?
means the most basic things are being ignored just because they are useless or they don't return you any profit... can't only blame the authorities since the common man is also involved..i really wish all think about it and do something.. because if we'd do than that would be ofcourse for the majority population for our country for our motherland ! but no , people prefer easy tasks and individual profit , that's all... if they are gonna think for the majority then acc to them how are they gonna make it.. sheh  !
really , i am not saying to dedicate or sacrifice the whole 100 % but its just a question of 1-5 % ... can't we all afford that much when its a call for the nation , our land , everything that counts in it.... just think guys,,, just think..hope that we'd ever reach a point... :)
thats what i feel sometimes...
nothing personal just as a whole  we can rock...

Wednesday, April 25, 2012

messy life !

Really i sometimes feel why the hell i am always surrounded by so many problems... but now i understand the real fact , its just all because of me. My weakeness i always try that no one is hurt because of me but then what happens actually? Its just me who is left so helpless and unnoticed sometimes... really i am selfish and mean and thank god slowly and gradually i'm succesful in presenting that tanjul to the world ! means really sometimes its better being rude with people you want to be happy and successful. Literally i  think i messed up my life on my own...slowly i think my love towards humanity would turn into hatred for the ones i don't know or i don't wanna be around me ! really a fishy and shitty situation  .. ah !
sometimes i really feel so agitated towards the conditions.... now i really am afraid of losing only few selected people in my life - maa (mother) , tanu (sister ) , mishika & sarim (best friends forever )... don't wanna lose..i totally depend on my tendencies and vibrations in life thats it ....

really i sometimes think and feel how complicated is the human nature ...
means its a matter of thought that how we humans react so differently to every different problem.. some trust new people at first go and some take years to gain trust and faith...how diplomatic everything seems to be...'
I've simply decided i'll be doing whatever i'll feel is right and try making things right
baki its the persons wish how he / she wants to take that suggestions and everything i'll provide with..i neither have the right nor the guts to change anything written by god either in my life or in anyones life..so its better to move on ! ....

i wish my readers read it and think about it...specially focus the 2nd paragraph ...


@tanjul !

Wednesday, April 18, 2012

moments :)

Well , its most of time my i lie on my bed all alone thinking about my past , present and the upcoming future. its me and my silence.. really sometimes its so necessary , this silence , this peace , this loneliness but if all this accompanies for long it becomes a pain on my nerve. It would for any other normal human being or any creature with emotions , needs . who doesn't need a company in his or her life . its just a need , a desire sometimes !
Today i had my best friend sarim with me who accompanied me and my silence. I made a pizza first time serving any friend and luckily it was damn crunchy n yummy. really i have observed whenever i'm with my best friend cum sister / sisso "mishika" (most times) or sarim , i kinda forget every other painful things going on in my life. That phase totally seems to be disappeared !
Ah ! me and sarim first talked , had pizza coke and few conversations then we switched on the laptop and played few tracks . we both sat silently doing nothing though thousands of thoughts were coming and going in our minds but we hardly spoke anything. I really enjoyed this silence this kind of emptiness or say a partially lonely moment. really it seems to be a human nature that whenever we are with our friends , all the worst things happening finds a "comma" on their path. can't say !

Don't know but some positive energy i gained after my best friends visit.. again i find myself in a lil past . like before i had a speed in my fingers while typing as now , my mind kept running finding more and more new thoughts , any kind . again i seem to have that power which was kinda lost within me . this word power , i find it to be my strength sometimes. i don't know what it is but really wanna thank sarim for all this is happening... really though i've got less but friends like "mishika, sarim , tanisha , omkar " and few more are real treasures of my book of life...thanks to you all for providing me such moments which i can think of and feel these moments anytime , anywhere !

tanjul <3

Monday, April 16, 2012

where's my sunrise...

well its sometimes so difficult to live more..everything seems to be exhausting you , everything is out of mind.. and people like me lose control over ourselves,,today something similar happened which should never have happened .. really this guilt is affecting me so badly.. i don't understand right or wrong when i'm angry means nothing comes to my mind..i go mad means really things have changed with me . my hatred for a person who seems to be the most important  in my life is increasing day by day..life's simply hell. But hope this phase of my life ends over soon ! thought the sun rises everyday but it hardly rises in the cycle of my life. The sunshine that brightens up my world is missing , everywhere what i see is just a darkeness and end up with a failure but i hope , i feel i'd come over all the obstacles soon ! may god bless me ! :(

Monday, April 2, 2012

journey ,,, i love'em

tomorrow morning i'm heading to my mother's home "nanima's place".. people there are eagerly waiting for me and to add the excitement i'm going w'out any of my family members...all are busy with their works...
i'll be accompanied by an uncle working under my mama(mom's brother ) ..but still i'll be alone :) cool na...will be returning soon...till then miss you (my blog) ! love !

Sunday, April 1, 2012

FEELINGS....sometimes so desperate to know !

Sometimes i feel , whats the importance of my existence on this earth ! I frequently try finding answers to some questions like " where do i come from ? where i have to end up ? "
Really , who knows the actual cause to all this ! the exact one !?
I know its the silly me in me who's thinking all this but still , we live in a democracy and are free to think anything in any respect ! Its really something between God and and every human being on this earth !
brrr...really these pondering moments just build up confusion and castles of question but at the same time make me familiar of the fact which .. ummm .. i'm not even sure about their existence ! But from insight i really wanna know the cause . I wish i could !
I know i can never take that Lord's place ..means i can't even dream of it. But i can surely do great work , like he did !
We all know , the one's we consider God were also humans like us but with some super natural powers !  They worked for the welfare and justice of random people who really needed .
They(God and Goddesses ) were provided with some other superpower . Now , has anyone ever thought whose that providing the superpowers,,????
We simply  praise but i bet , no one have ever thought of knowing the truth ? whose actually running this whole world !
Hope some or the other day i'll get my answers . Till then i expect my readers to think and ponder about the fact i presented . This is not specifically for a particular religion , its as a whole and we exist as 1 !
Tanjul

Thursday, March 15, 2012

love this song






this is my most favourite song from the block buster movie "agneepath" ! really my emotions are so much attached , sometimes i find myself in the song and tears flow through my eyes ! 
thanks to sonu nigam , the singer of this song to bring it out !

past 2 years

hi friends !
these days i'm a bit frequent.. what to do ! can't keep me away from this place which is full opportunities to know the world,,,share your emotions , spirits , and everything you wish to . isn't it ?
i stepped in this school "vsec" on 20 july 2010 ! really it was really a striving session for me for few months...many ups and downs i witnessed but a famous hindi saying "ant bhala toh sab bhala" , meaning end is well then all is well !
Really how these days passed so enthusiastically joyfully.. can't even express.. still i'm here to express only...lol of me..i don't even watch out what i say !

heya once again....
the day i stepped or say the day which was assigned my first working day at vsec , ah i was looking a "champu" hairs so sticky , so so streched ! hahaha in simple words i should say , i was looking a big big big LOL ! 

my best friend home...

ah .. she suddenly arrived so early ! i was with my dad and sis in my room
As i heard her talking to my mom and grandmaa... i ran downstairs and hugged her tight ! really it seemed as if we were meeting after many years....
basically she came here to learn a chapter relation and functions in maths ! really i love teaching her and noone else ! :D

now she's accompanying my sis in the kitchen as my sis preparing a dish in kitchen "pavbhaji"...wah my sis cooking that too a surprize !
now got to go...cya soon !
tanjul

Monday, March 12, 2012

chemistry exam...

ah really enjoying my last days of student life... tomorrow is my chemistry exam and i'm trying to deal sucessfully with the organic chemistry ...really its not my type..my bestfriend mysh she deals with organic successfully i think and me with physical chemistry ! talking to her on phone..she's using her dad's cell haha ! and i'm here sharing my special moments with all my readers.
i don't know whether people like reading me or not but really i love sharing my moments with them
listening to one of the blockbuster movies of bollywood "agneepath" track "ab hai samne ise chu lu jara "
awesome track !
i know i should be tensed and frightened humming all the mantras but don't know why m a bit confident i know i'll do it ! i pray i'm not proved wrong !
i wish and pray for all my friends and batchmates ! ah please please god ji , be with us...

Tuesday, March 6, 2012

HAPPY HOLI FRIENDS :)

HATE THIS TIME PERIOD OF MY LIFE !

Hi friends...
I'm here after an interval of a long time...
my board exams are going on . I'm over with English n physics subjects but now still left with chemistry , maths and computers ! these days aren't so well but still i get up every morning with a hope that everything will get fine sooner . ah ! it really is making me difficult to stay alive but then the thought of my loved ones strike out my mind . I can't afford losing them !The thing i hate the most is "dilemmas" and presently my life is like surrounded with dilemmas . No sign of a real smile on my face.But again i would say that according to what my mom says "God is surely making me strong , preparing me for the toughest times so that i don't have to strive n i win with success over those times . The thing i cannot afford is my mom's sad and dull face . I really wish i could make her life more smooth n happy ! Really for this i'm no doubt angry with lord . Hope in this season's first festival which is a fest of colors , my mom's life becomes more colorful , happy and joyful... and hope your prayers would always support me !

HAPPY HOLI FRIENDS :):):)

Tuesday, December 20, 2011

love you PKT ! u r my BFF

hey...hey...hey!!!
ATTENTION PLEASE...!!!
hello ladies and gentlemen

oopss

dudes and babes...

ooopps...oopps...


guys and girls...


oopss ooopppssss ooppssss


balak evam balikao


SOME PRECIOUS GOLDEN DIAMONDS
FOR MY BEST FRIEND
pUlKiT….!!!

Attention attention attention !!!

 i'm here to express my heart's elation
praising him is my passion..!!
i'm crazy about my best friend

who knows how to stick on new trends..!!

he's an awesome guitarist

i am his best voterist…

he's a cool dude..

i am sometimes so rude…

i am a good gossiper

but he's not less than but a better editor..!!

he's the one to be made endear

and to become lifetime happier..!!

but let me make it clear

i am created much luckier ..!![than him]

God gifted him as my best friend

his praises never stops my pen

for a shiny grin on his face
i can provide him a pepsodent white
toothpaste
his smile is everlasting
which can make anyone's life never ending
the person is too handsome

even his personality is awesome blossom
he even knows how to sing

i being his fan just know how to blink
he is good at studies

his skeleton box consists all remedies
oh my gosh !!!!!!!!!! BRAVO

he is an all rounder
how!! i just wonder

at last i would just like to say
he may be the world rock star
but for me he is the morning star.......


THANKS FOR BEING THERE
FOR ME……LOVE U DUDE…WE WILL ROCK THIS WORLD


Dated : 15 March 2010

Hey puli…you are my very best friend..i hope v r going to be the same
best friends…for life time …u n me will rock this
world…lolz…..but this poem n song specially for ‘U’…ye scrap hamari dosti ke naam…hahaha
so enjoy it…!!!

Thursday, December 15, 2011

One of my pearls !

HI ...
Today I'm here to share something about one of my bestest friends "OMKAR PATRADEKHAR" .
He belongs to Wani , Nagpur city and is studying in pune ! I met him in 2008 when i went to his school "Bhonsala Military School , Panchwati " which was  hosting the 3rd National Aerospace Olympiad and my school participated in that. I met him while i went for archery... ha ha ha!!! That was a weird experience actually sudden one...
How he became such a good friend , huh time only knows ... :) really good friends are easy to find but true one are like one in a million !
He always try to be there whenever i need someone to support me mentally , when I'm losing hope , when there is noone to make me calm. But yeah in return I do nothing , when he needs me the most , I'm always lost...last 2 times happened this and I am really awful !
But yeah i will try , nothing such happens next time !
He is the one who reads this confused blog of mine daily ! He appreciates me too...Really lucky to have me...I am getting short of words but yeah that doesn't means there is lack of emotions too ;)
thanks OMI  for being there :)

Wednesday, December 14, 2011

SHAYERO KA SHAYERANA !

Hi , here i am with one of my dedications ! Its by one of my special friends "ABHIJEET SRIVASTAVA" ..  know he is reading this post and hope he realises the fact and lets the world know the magic of his words !

So , it goes :
Meri dharkano me aap ka hi raz hoga,
Meri bat ka bas yehi andaz hoga,
Kabhi bewafaee nahin karte hum dosti me,
Meri dosti pe aap ko hamesha naz hoga!!!

Har Sitara Chand k karib nahi hota,
Dil ki Daulat wala garib nahi hota
Dost tum jaisa mila hai mukaddar se
Har kisi ka aisa nasib nahi hota….

Taron ko ginne wale hum na the
akele gungunane wale hum na the
ye to apki Dosti ne aadat laga di…
warna kisi ko itna yaad karne wale hum na the…

Har khushi Dil k karib nahi hoti,
zindagi gamo se dur nahi hoti
ae Dost is Dosti ko sanjokar rakhna,
aisi Dosti har kisi ko nasib nahi hoti…

Agar itni Pyari soch tumhari na hoti,
mulakat tumse humari na hoti
tadapte rehte sachche Dost k liye
agar Dosti tumse humari na hoti…

:) thanksssss

Friday, December 2, 2011

EMPTY SPACES

Long time , I have been searching for a topic on which i can make a thought and finally I came across one such topic.

At some point of life , we all need to be alone for sometime . You may call it a wish or a need , anything , but we want to be somewhere out of the world , where only its me n me , no one else . There is no space for either sorrows nor happiness , everything is different from this sometimes harsh and sometimes blooming reality !

God has given empty spaces in our life , which we most of the time spend doing nothing !
With "empty spaces" , I mean to say , free time , or say , time which we spend doing useless things and we never come to know of it .
Today (2 dec 2011) , I realized that one should spend time with herself / himself . It might be few minutes only but its must . But again its my belief , nothing compulsory . I feel , one should give importance to such empty spaces as it is the thing or time period which makes us realize some important things in out life , which we try to ignore most of the times .

I realized many things , good/bad , positive/negative , in the 1 hour which i spent with myself toady . Ah ! It was really great knowing the real me . Actually  , I came across those things which I never gave time , ignored always . Some memories , i was running away from them ! I realized that if I didn't give time to them then with my growing age , they all will b vanished off and become and opaque one !

Brrr...I know whatever I write is always a shop of confusion , exactly like me ! ha ha ! That's why I say , I am no writer or anything like that . I am simply me , who share her life here with you all . Oh I'm getting emo again !!! LOL...
It all happens because I think many things at one single time . See guys ! how multi-talented I'm ! Isn't it?

My weakness , that I present my weakness in front of everyone . Seriously I love to be an open book . But , but , but , that is sometimes the part where people find chances , actually they get many chances to take advantage of me.. ah ! selfish world around me , still I love mine !

Today , I was sitting on a bench in my school corridor .  It was our games hour . My friends were busy doing their things , asked me to join then . Actually , i literally wanted to be alone , don't know why?
I was sitting , sun was high above in the sky doing its job and providing me the warmth under its captivity . I was watching the cricket match being played by my classmates . Though my eyes were struck there on the pitch , but my mind was somewhere in another world , having a serene trip of its own ! Many memories I came across , which simply provided me with an unwanted current and somethings I realized too. I thought of things which I need to overcome in order to be a winner , which made me a lively soul , which were preventing me to be the real me .. all somethings I realized ! he he !

Empty spaces are provided by that supreme power in each one of ours lives . Its depending on us how we tackle with them , So, we should recognize them and make some use of it . Many writers write , poets imagine for their poems , making use of this precious time given to us ..
So, we should all recognize it , feel those spaces , and work out according to that :)
" PASSED TIME CAN NEVER RETURN  ! "

Friday, November 25, 2011

well finally exams over !

heya guys ! was busy with my exams and other things , ah ! hectic life...really we don't seem to be kids :P hahaha , so much pressure !!!

Finally i am done with my terminal exams today ! Really came across many facts of my sweet & bitter life in the past few days...wanna share it with you all but not now, when the right time comes. By the way , really missed ANTAS alot , its the place where i find myself calm , else i'm always a messed up girl creating more mess around me... it sometimes seems to be like a warms arms wrapping me around , i'm here all alone with me n my desires , emotions , blah blah !... Don't you guys think i can be awarded MISS.BLAH award hahaha :)

So many thoughts come across my mind every single second , i'm so good ! i don't waste a single minute , oops  ! second of my life ! But really they r are simply useless..hehehe...
will write soon,till then - take care , good night all my readers !!!!