Treasure Of My WORLD !!!

I'm back again with a poem this time which is composed by my best friend Mishika...
I really feel proud to make it a part of my life and my blog....!!


The one's who gave their support
To make you stand on the board.
They made you to walk the first step of life,
even then, they try to make your future bright.

They help you to finish the first step of your life,
they teach you the first ABC of life
so that you become very fluent and
become morale of your choice.

But when we reach the second phase of life
we don't get to be a fire fly.
If they tell us to stop quietly
then we start with them unquietly.

But , slowly when we realize that,
they are the one's who make us bright
and we started to fight with such a lord's might.

Their , loan cant be renewd in any phase of time.
as they had stabilize us to make us squire.
Now,when we become so as called rankers of society.

They should be kept happy and
be supported that is our duty.
They are such precious jewels of treasure
the MIGHTY LORD called them as his real mirror.

They are the owners of our soul,
the world call them as their PARENTS  but
i call parents as my own "WoRlD"....

Call by the soul !!!

It's a long time i have been researching on this but still i haven't reached anywhere but yeah , i can rely that whatever i think is true at some points.Well it wasn't my thought everytime but i was compelled to believe on whatever i heard or saw...and the one who compelled me was my soul. I know you might be thinking that what kind of a freak i am and you should think the same way.
In today's 21st century , anyone hardly talk about ghosts , demons , spirits and all kind of "son of bitches" and its genuine too but i being one of you all dared to do this.
This is going to be very long. Thanks to various generals , discovery channel , some tv shows like supernaturals because i was being able to get aware and gather facts about them. Though they belong to various mytholigies and are considered to be mythical creatures but they are around us . They are spirits.

Well a few months back when i went for my maths class to my teacher's house , he was attending his guest.So i went up to the drawing room where they both assembled .I started with my work.I didn't indulge myself in whtever they were saying but suddenly somethings his guest said which caught me.He said that whenever a person is on the verge of his death , he/she starts having intuitions and many more things happens and from then onwards i started believing it.Today , my friends, mishika, she proved this to be right as the same thing happened with her grandfather ... There is something in the dark,there is something which we don't know that they know.

It doesn't means that always the spirits are vengeful .It's just they want peace and when they don't get it then they wander about years and years and then we get vengeful spirits who just want to tear off your flesh if you tried to come in their way and just then your end of line...well didn't i take you far ahead....we need to go back where we started,,,i don't want to say that i know each and every minute thing about it but yeah i'm aware of it.
Various demons are just mythic.It means that they are just mythical creatures and people's belief put in danger.


Most of the people read horror novels and books because they like to be frightened.They know that while reading when it becomes too scary we can always close the book but let me ask-
what happens when we cannot close the book....???????????
That's what we call horror.
this is all based on anthology.

Well i also understood that if you will get on the path which leads to them then you are really going to get them and i almost experienced . People will think me mad but its the harsh truth.

I know , only 45% people are going to believe me.
This was all i could collect till now...i'm still on my research....hope to finish it soon....

19 april 2011

The day started fine, i reached school, classes started.

We enjoy terribly and these days i hardly cry...:):):) as our chemistry period started i don't know why i started feeling the way as i felt in class 11th. Means very clumpsy.All 3 of my friends were able to solve the numericals given by our teacher but me.ah !! how hard it felt.

I know I am not very intelligent but still i have other talents which hardly anyone sees except some of my bestfreinds. Whenever such thing happens i don't know why but i start thinking of some drowsy things like how i'm being underestimated by me and my teachers.

I don't want to be underestimated. Actually this fact i didn't recognize until mishika, my bestfriend and my classmate encouraged me. I really thank her for supporting me at every step.She made me understand that I need to fight with it. Its true thats it is not my intrest .

And now I have understood what i have to do. Though the day felt long but yeah i was the one who witnessed a magnificent sunset which washed away all my sorrrows....
I really wish we would have become friends earlier when i joined VSEC but still I'm thankful that atleast we met and made such an awesome freindship.
love you sis !!!!

Love is what i feel !!!

i don't know from where or what to start with and neither i know that why i have chosen this title . let me tell you neither i am a good writer nor a grabbing orator. but still , there are many things i have come up with . as i told i am not very good at it but i just felt that i should make a trial , " akhir koshish karne walo ki haar kabhi nhi hoti !!! " actually frankly it's not me , its someone else who is very special to me and my bestest friend ,its he who asked me to do it , its he who encouraged me , gave the support required. he kept on saying that i should give chance to my writing but asusual i was always kind of a lazy thing means i was like a TAKE A CHILL PILL GIRL . but really , for me it proved right that time brings the biggest and the smallest changes in life. so not distracting from my motive i should actually come to the point . as a result of his support i am here with a pen in hand and a mind full of 1000's of titbits,wierd,pleasant,unusual,unbelievable and what not thoughts , which are making roundabouts or say trying to gather together for a meeting. huh ! that was an unsuccessful attempt to bring humour before i start .
so here i go.....
Well i am here with my second story after the new girl in school .
This is a story of a girl named shaina who was very free , not exactly in her life but in her thoughts and lived a life as if she lived in a dreamland. For her everything had its own innocence. She was girl full of anxities of living life with loads and loads of happiness !!!
This didn't remain the same ......
the story goes -
Something happened without Shaina's self-control and  that changed the view of her life.She was in love. At that time everything became more heavenly for her.But this is also true that happiness doesn't stays for long.She discovered soon that she was being cheated.
 At first, she found herself at a crossroad. Ah ! there were , as usual four paths to move on but DIL TOH BACHHA HAI JI  , when it broke it broke so hard that nothing was either visible or audible . Because of such an horrified past of her, she was too afraid that her fear didn't let her to move either of her steps in any one of those paths. She was so frightened that her mind had just made a set-up that she was never going to come out of that suffering and start moving ahead. It felt as if though all four directions were waiting for her to come, but she was not at all ready to move on them. But yaa , one thing she was totally sure of that atleast she got her own meaning , her own view point , her own definition for this four letter screwed up word LOVE . according to me now love was-
          
                " love is just a game of two hearts , which can say GAME OVER the very next moment . "

Don't you think it has the damn harsh truth in it ? Its right know !!! means falling in love is so easy, sharing feelings and ya it is the only thing which compells you to start watching dreams but in reality you never know whether they will even fulfill or not. As i said falling in love is not neither in our hands nor a very difficult task. wo kehte hain na - "pyaar toh bas ho jata hai" , but have you ever thought that what are you going to get through when this love has left you. No na? huh ! no one has actually . Even same was with Shaina . she hasn't ever thought of it. But then she was realizing the second important phase of love which was  HATRED.

After Shaina was a victim of it, she started believing that neither love was made for her nor she was made for love . So in short , they both weren't made for each other. She realized that ya it was a day when she felt it was the most happiesst one in the whole world becoause her love was with her but in reality she was totally unaware of the very next phase of this so called love life she has to go through . She was not knowing that few days of happiness and a feeling of being together with her love will directly throw her into a hell where she was lost and all alone. Though everyone was around Shaina, but still the one whom she wanted to be around wasn't with her. Actually her love never cared about her and her innocent feelings. It was so shameful that a girl like her was in such a condittion but as i told you , that time transforms a person. She had lost her original identity of what she was. For her, it felt as if everything was over, she was left with nothing except lonliness and emptiness. She lost hope of getting back her worderful life she had. seriously , she was at ehr worst part of life .

She was and is still very small for all these and she even knows that its just a very delicate period of her life or any other girl like her.

This teenage is the only phase which makes us grow up because it is the period when we come across many things and learn step by step. But Shaina had as if decided not to be happy. She stopped  believing in the beauty of this stupid stuff called love. For her it seemded as if it was a vast ocean in which if you are lost once , then you can never trace your way back .

Either it will break you totally or it will make you more stronger. Since there is no way out of it and no remedy for it, so it is crystal clear that there isn't any end of this blah blah so called ocean, huh !!!

When she was going through this tough period , she also came across many truths and falses' too. The most important one which she came across , that  practically proved to be super duper correct was this that boys always move with a photocopy of their hearts with them , so that they have a back-up facilty .Means if one broke their heart then without putting a band-aid the very next moment they can proceed and present it for someone else .But has anyone thought of whats the case with girls??? huh ! They only have one heart which they though lately but give it very soon to that person whom they are in love with while they don't even know whether their heart is going to be handled with care or not. And as in most cases like Shaina's, if they are left heart brokern tab toh for them the whole world seems to be a CRAP WITH MANY CRACKS !!! But its not even their mistake, its god who has made them like that with such delicate feelings. You know what i feel that he should have given us powers so that when girls like  Shainsa were if left heart broken then atleast like a VENGEFUL spirit they could break those heartbreakers. Though it sounds funny but really i wanna question him for this !

Well , as always i am distracted from my track !!!

Then slowly slowly she was coping up with those tough conditions. She also stopped staining her pillow covers with her so damn precious tears :). She got other reasons for her being alive.Her friends,  family , career and you know this was all because of one person, her bestfriend, her angel,Shlok. He taught her that LOVE IS JUST A PART OF LIFE BUT IT IS NOT  LIFE.

 At first go she was a bit against of it but again the very next moment it proved to be right. Ofcousre without love we are not going to die na ! And  after this thought was introduced in her mind, she started being happy, doing masti tappa with friends and famil. But still something was there which was not letting her to keep herself at peace.

She had started loving everything around her. She was actually not knowing what was happening with her , but yeah , one thing she was sure of and even shocked of too that she again started having that essence of love in her mind and surrounding. She was afraid of whats going to happen the next moment. She was totally a stranger to it , O gosh ! She didn't know why but she started loving to spend time with her bestfriend .Whenever she was with him she used to feel so special, delicate , unique,different ..Ah ! and what not. everything aruond her, the nature , her every single thought was  compelling her to get lost in that idiotic ocean again which she had decided not to look at. Means she was calling it an idiot but still the thought of being in it was giving her kind of goosebumps .It shaked her badly , Damnit ! But at the same time this love whichshei was falling in was unpredictable. She didn't want her heart to be broken again . For her it was onesided becoause she didn't even know what Shlok felt for her . Everything was like , disturbed kind of . Wo kehte hain na man mein buri wali UTHAL UTHAL si mach gayi thi. Shaina again started having dreams. she started believing the fact that if god is putting a SHUT DOWN to one door then another door is waiting for us to step inside its holy threshold. At one part it was a WOW moment but at the second it was a HOW moment! Means how can she fall in love with him. she knew this gonna hurt her again.

But , but , but , the story doesn't ends here. There was a sharp twist in it as i told everything was unpredictable. She decided to speak up to him and after fighting with all ifs and buts and

all occurng fears she finally spoke up to him. Then a complete silence surrounded them and she was just sensing his breath . She knew what was going to be his answer but something strange

happened which she haven't even expected. She just only heard 3 words - I LOVE YOU ! She was shocked , happy,etc. means , ah! the moment can't be explained .She was flying high. Wo

kehte hai na PAO TALE ZAMIN KHISAK JANA !! time started running like a rabbit. Its always with her when she wanted the time to move slowly it ran so fast like a rocket launcher was

flying to launch a satellite and when she wanted it to pass fast as it could, it moves worst than a tortoise. huh !! a total dismatch with what she wanted. Well , thats something different .

She was again changing but something else was this time , her love was not a result of infactuation as earlier. It was true and had a great depth . She was just in love with him. And this

feeling was tremendous. ah ! i don't wanna speak in a way as if i am presenting a movie dialogue but really whatever she was feeling , for me i just heard them happening in legends.

Everything around her now had a strange beautiful meaning for her. Oh wow ! She loved this feeling and she didn't want to lose it again. Actually she wasn't able to stand on floor. Wo toh

KALPANAO KI UDAAN BHARNE LAGI THI !!!

love is not what you see

not what you think

not what you hear

not what you achieve

its all that you feel in yourself.

you are in love

when you touch your heart and feel the touch of that person

when you close your eyes and have a picture of that person

when you take a deep breath and feel the closeness of that person

you are in love not when you think you are in love

you are in love not when you want to be in love

you are in love not beacause of some gud looks of a person

infact you are in love

when you keep telling yourself you want to be away from it

love is when you die for a glance of that person

love is when you are ready to do anything

just for a smile from that person

love is when you have tears for that person

love is when you start praying to god for the well being of that person

even if that persons' not you future....

For Shaina,her love is her inspiration , her admiration, her encouraging factor , her support , her strength, and everything. In short , its her life suppport system. But yeah its just a part of  life not life. So she am not going to ovelook other factors which have an equal importance .

Now i don't think i need to describe anymore, shabdo ne hi Shaina ke dil ka haal bata dia hoga. But  if you still need an answer then even i don't know what i am going to say..For now i am just left with moistened eyes .

Shaina word's-For me , my present says that i just need to walk ahead with what i have .I need not to worry about things i may lose because if anything is mine then surely i will get it but if its not my destiny then no one can compell it to be mine.I will happily let it go. But i just wish that on this long journey of mine ,my love walks with me hand in hand . There is no end for this love thing. I just wanna thank him,thank Shlok for making my life an inspiration for me , thanks .

Finally , i , putting my pen down ask your leave !!

by-

tanjul sarkar

How much loyal you are ???

You all might be making thousands of guesses after reading the title.
Well today morning while i was on my way to school , i had a long discussion with a boy named Piyush in my van..He is a class 9th student . We were having discussion about how much of our youth is loyal towards him/her and their parents.
Since last many days, am watching small children running over the streets playing gulli-danda,watching students going to school , etc.etc, but no one ever thought that what feeling they might be having when they see children going to school. I am not sure whether i am right or wrong but i feel that i have seen something in their eyes, a dear wish that they can also go to school,live in that atmosphere,know what is school and all that. Their are lakhs of similar children who cannot go to schools and live with a hope of a good life.

Now coming over to my point, first i want to ask a question to all the students includeing me-Are we loyal towards us and our parents ?
Huh !!! many might be reading this and just saying what a crap it is? But let me tell them that this is a question which they will ask and even answer themselves after 20-25 years.
I am at no wrong in saying this tha 80%(say) students are just wasting time and their parents money in simply partying out and having all funs and luxuries of life which they may have later.They are forgetting what their parents are doing for them. They are working so hard and earning just because they want their children to get everything whatever they couldn't . They are fulfilling all our needs without questioning and what they are demanding from us is just a little bit loyalty and honesty towards our studies and our career. before proceeding , one question-'are they going to be benefitted if we work for a bright future?'
What we see today is students move out of their houses in their well dressed uniform and bunking schools and having fun.Not only students of school,I am even including them who are living in different cities for higher education . No one has ever thought except the few. MOstly think-"areh jab tak maa baap de rhe hain lete raho baad ki baad mein dekhi jaegi". With this sensibility most of genx is stepping ahead.
Don't you think that we should not misuse our parent's resources. Means its better we ask our parents to open a vegetable shop instead of investing their precious money forr our bright future.Most of the seats in colleges and  universities is booked for sc's sbc's which are mostly occupied by those students who are not worth for it. And many worthy student have to stay behind...


I know i am not clear with what actually i wanna say, but i just wish that atleast all the students and childrens get to know about their responsibilities and act according to it,doesn't take advantage of fake resoursec which are just spoiling their future,making them handicapped and dependent.
Just for those lakhs of children who are lacking behind...!!!!!

IN and OUT's

A disfigured tempo while we were on our way to a place named ruma.

Juhu chaupati in mumbai during sunset

Haji ali clicked from far away during heavy rain

me and my friends partying on friendship day

A tree which fascinated me on the gwalior-kanpur highway

ittawa city highway

christmas in mariampur sen sec school

What's exciting me these days !!!

These days i don't know why but i have started feeling that world is nearing to end , may be because various mishaps , for example we can consider the Japan trauma. But at the same time i feel that its just impossible for our earth get destroyed in one go !!! yeah , their are chances that we suffer many disasters , lose many of our islands like Andaman and nicobar islands , etc. but whole earth ???????

From the knowledge i have collected yet from my friends , news ,teachers , etc. it is true that this yuga of ours will end and the processees have also started but still our next generation will come.And about big bang theory we all know and our earth is one of the strongest planets. It will take time to destroy.

Actually , the main source of this mental trauma is MAN...he is the only one because of whom we are at this stage. he is the only one who kept commiting all these mistakes knowing what will be the consequences.I am not onlyblaming a single man but we all are responsible. But i am making no mistake in blaming those men who are still continuing to do the same.Still on roads i see all that rubbish, i see people throwing the garbage here and there, cutting tress for making money, etc. etc.

I just want to spread this message that its high time now. WE have to do something in unity if we wish to live longer. This can be done only if we all get together. I want everyone to accept the nature as it is. It is already giving us many things then why to try to get more which is out of its considering power.

like we humans can't do any work after an extreme limit same way is the case with nature.

Please don't take advantage else we are gonna hit badly . Respect it and its resources. Stop overusing it .

Huh!!! these are some facts and figures that i have collected in my pocket, in actual no one knows whats gonna happen. I just pray to god that we live atleast a span of life in which we can fulfil our dreams.

Join hands and pray to God for our better Earth, better life and for their souls rest in peace who lost their lives in different disasters that took place till now !!!

SUCKER PUNCH

On today's post, I've decided to review the latest movie that I saw in theatres last Friday. It's the action-meets-fantasy film: Sucker Punch

What it is about :

Sucker Punch is a 2011 action-fantasy thriller film about the fantasies of a young woman who is committed to a mental institution.

Story so far :

A 20-year old girl nicknamed "babydoll"  is institutionalized by her stepfather at the Lennox House for the Mentally Insane after she is blamed for the death of her younger sister. Blue Jones , who is the asylum's orderly, is bribedby Babydoll's stepfather into faking the signature of the asylum's psychiatrist to have Babydoll lobotomized so she can neither inform the authorities of what really happened nor reclaim her recently deceased mother's fortune.

As she enters the institution, she notices details of its layout and security.


In the five days before the surgeon  arrives, Babydoll retreats to a fantasy world in which she is a newly-arrived virgin in a brothel owned by the mob. She befriends four other dancers—Amber , blondie, sweet pea and rocket.  Dr. Gorski appears here as the girls' dance instructor and tells Babydoll that her virginity will be sold to a client known as "The High Roller" who will be arriving in five days.

Madam Gorski forces Babydoll to perform an erotic dance. While she dances , she fantasizes an adventure in feudal japan , where she meets a wise man who tells her that she can escape if she collects five items: a map, fire, a knife, a key and a fifth, unrevealed item that would require "great sacrifice". He gives her a sword and a gun, instructing her to fight three demon samurai, which she defeats . Back in brothel, the dance is successful in she succees in impressing the mobster boss,blue.

Inspired by the Wise Man, Babydoll convinces her friends to prepare an escape. During subsequent dances, she imagines adventurous events that succeeds the efforts of her friends in obtaining the items required to escape . In the last episode, Rocket sacrifices herself to save her sister and dies when the bomb detonates. This is paralleled in the brothel fantasy, where the cook attempts to stab Sweet Pea as she steals a knife and Rocket is killed, who has jumped in to save her sister.

Soon Blue realizes that the girls are planning something and hears Blondie telling Babydoll's plan to Madam Gorski.  He locks Sweet Pea in a utility closet for her attempted theft for a knife and later takes the 3 girls , amber,blondie and babydoll backstage. Then he shoots amber and blondie and gives an example to babydoll for what can happen to her .He tries to rape Babydoll, but she stabs him with the knife .Then she frees sweet pea using Blue's master key. She and Sweet Pea start a fire with the stolen lighter so that, as a result of the fire alarm, the institution's doors unlock. They sneak out but their final exit is blocked by hoodlums.

Babydoll decides that the fifth item is herself and that her sacrifice is needed to complete Sweet Pea's story. She distracts the guards, allowing Sweet Pea to escape. The scene then cuts back to the asylum in which the surgeon has just performed the ice pick lobotomy. He is perturbed by her final expression and starts to question Dr. Gorski. They realize that Blue has forged the signature and he is apprehended as he is assaulting Babydoll in her cell while she remains catatonic.

Sweet Pea has escaped to a bus station but is stopped by suspicious police as she boards a bus. The bus driver—revealed to be the Wise Man who had helped the girls in their adventures—misleads the police and allows Sweet Pea to board without a ticket. Before pulling away, he tells her that she still "has a long way to go".

My reaction after i watched the movie :

Frankly speaking, as the movie started i was damn excited about it because it was my choice. Me , my lil sis and my uncle went to watch it in theatre. Well , after half-an-hour , my uncle and lil sister started blaming me for such a bad choice. actually it wasn't their fault. Since it was a fantsasy thriller , so it was a bit difficult to understand. means even with me was happening so i couldn't answer them but still i was liking it

Actually Sucker Punch is an extremely difficult film to, categorize, summarize or analize ,especially by a layperson such as myself .

But still ,even i was failed to analize but the main message which I recieved and which badly inspired me was-

    " In whichever conditions we are,we need to fight to win the battle . We should never depend on our fate because it is something which we make ourselves. , its not readymade ."

In hindi there's a proverb-" लड़ो या मरो ".

So keep fighting , the success is all yours !!!

-TANJUL

LIVE LIFE KING SIZE

We all come across many good and bad times in our lives. !!!

In the past 16 years , i too came across many such moments.but hardly i remember much as i am kind of "short term memory loss" .huh ! thats what my friends call me. :) . actually thats not the case at all except some times. hehehe.!!!

In my life or you might say in this adventurous journey of my life , i have come up with many happy moments. Just what i wish for them is to come again and knock my door. actully its a human tendency or may say god-gifted that we love those reasons to stay forever with us which makes us happy though thats not the nature of these moments.but still who won't love to be happy. well thats something else i am going to.

Ah!! won't you like to know whats my thought  about sad and bad ones??? you will laugh at this but on their first visit only , i at once try to get them off my sight and bid them a farewell...hehehe.!!!

But , a few days before, a thought came to my mind.

we all know this cicle of happy and sad moments. they come and go when they have to. they don't act according to what we want. the time for which they will stay with us is fixed . nothing is in our hands !!then why are we getting into it so deeply that we are not able to come out of it and see that whats next waiting for us????

we all love to be happy and hence we always wait for such moments. but has ever anyone thought that what we learn from them is just how to love,  get happiness , a smile , enjoyment and few more almighty things. but lemme ask ! do we ever learn a single lil lesson from it which helps us to stand stiff in those odd moments? no na !!!

on the other hand , if we talk about the bad ones, though we fear them, we don't want them, and at times we hate them but still , though being harsh and rude, atleast they teach us a lesson and go. they teche us to face that time when love , happiness , smile,friends family etc. all leave us .they never leave us empty handed.

Though sun sets but there is always a sunrise after it..!!!!

well i have something , hope all readers like it-
I have seen castles made out of sand,

met people who believe their destiny is engraved on the palm of their hands .

I have seen people change their faith,
experienced love change into hate.

I have seen people grow younger with age,

and a bird who wouldn't fly out of an open cage.

I have seen love sold for money,

people who are devastated inside but outside they are funny.

I have seen unicorn fall in love with toad,

people who have owned half the city have now hit the road.

I have learned to expect the unexpected,

perfection doesn't exist ,we're all defected.

Everyone cries,some just hide their tears,

they say coal turns diamond over a thousand years.

Some may believe you are one in a million,

for others you are just another nobody in the billion.

I just want my reader to read it once and they will realize that life is toooo.. short and we here just for a moment !!!

so LIVE LIFE KING SIZE with all that you have ,cherish all your moments HAPPY OR SAD..!!! :)

-Tanjul

New Girl In School !!!

It is my first attempt . i just thought to make a try and i am here with a story of very simple girl aisha from a city name yaadsheher.

well this idea of yaadsheher isn't my invention but its taken from NILESH MISRA'S radio show YAADON KA IDIOT BOX...really i'm a great fan of him . the way he speaks , his voice and everything. see again he's distracting me..lolzz.

when aisha first stepped in this school , she was full of mixed feelings . she was with her mother . for her , her mother was her strength, LIKE her life support system , but she never expressed this in front of her mother. she had a sister named ahana. both always fighted like cats and dogs but if they were seperated then really they could not breathe. 

As she kept moving towards the main office , many thoughts crept into her mind .many passed by and many stayed. the thought which were actually disturbing her much was this that whether she would get admission or not because it was mid-july,very late and specially more horrifying because the first terms had arrived .really that moment was damn challenging for her means there was no other choice. if she didn't get any admission then she had to continue in the same school where she didn't want to go back. but as usual , her mother had a faith in her and even fod . even she also made a set up in her mind that if this admission was in her luck then even god cannot stop to let that happen. so they gave a try and at first attempt , it was a big NO.now, they coudn't even blame the principal because it was genuine . as she moved out of the office, she was a bit upset but as she saw boys playing football, a strange excitement and desire provoked in her for the sport.

actually her main motive was to change school because she got almost frustrated and depressed in her previous school. she has started believing that she cannot clear class 11th if she continued there because she though that her physics teacher won't let anyone pass. she became so dull. in short, she was badly screwed up. but nothing was there to take her out of it , in those days only she got more closer to her mother whom she thought coudn't be close to.her pretty cute face had also shrugged as she kept crying the whole day long in despair.she started bunking her schools. her mind was totally out of studies and yeah she even got a big 0 in a chemistry test held in class. damn embarassing !!!hardly anyone believed.

after the second attempt, finally she got admission. that was like the most happiest moment. actually in truth she had many happiest moments but still it seemed as if it was the bestest one. huh!!! hehehe.. :)
the very next day her mommy went to drop her to school. she was very anxious n afraid also. she had never been to a coed school earlier. since childhood she was in a convent school. well wo chhodo !!! then the peon took her to her respective class. it was written 11-A...boys gatherd at the door . she was also feeling wierd because her first day at new school and her hairs looked like an oil factory...hehehe...slowly and gradually the girls of the class came upto her and made an introduction. she was still frightened with this fact that if they torchured or did something like that but still everything went on smoothly. though not very good friends but atleast she got someone to talk with.
well aisha had to face many things. in the first five months she came witnessed any problems. first one she failed badly in her first term examinations. really sad but no one could help out. then a class 12 guys started liking her. anyhow she managed to exchange her number . seriously this was her worst step .after this that guy started making a fuss and this matter reached the senior teachers. omg !!! what the day it was. because of her mistake she had to face the insult by the principal and also her mother who never had to be in the pincipal office before for any of her wrongdoing had to go there. she was really feeling damn guilty.still this all cleared off.
she was  sports star!!means like i don't know but what she heard . many guys and gals did make fun too but still mnay appreciated . she was the only one among girls who was intrested in playing football. daily she went for morning practices..she never bothered about what others thought or might think. when she joined the school, some stupid kind of rumours were also spread among the students of her batch.

days passed , it was nearing to be the 5th month of her existence in that school , still she lacked good friends . she got a friend with whom she moved about but still kehte hain na "kuch kami si thi".second terms came and passed by ,the condition remained the same.she started missing her friends of  her previous school more and more.she felt so lonely without them.at every instance she missed them, but still life goes on...actually ,i kinda started hating that school...o lord !!!

i think i am taking too long but still theres a lot more...!!!

than after her winter vaccations were over she gor 3 friends - karuna,snehlata,tarika. though she was closed to all 3 of them but the case with tarika was kind a bit different. she started getting back to the real aisha she was at her previous school. she again started enjoying her school life. actually the fact was this that she got a reason to "live life king size"...she got her friends ...again that masti tappa surrounded her. she stopped crying like kiddos on small matters. again that "GUNDAPAN " was back in her. and yeah again her mother got her real daughter aisha back.she stopped fearing for anything. she again regained her strength and confidence with which she fighted with different circumstancs.
she got new friends . her classmates has also accepted her.and on the whole altogether she got a bunch of friends to be with.

 yeah she also experienced the feeling of giving retest in class 11th as she failed in physics subject. actually she never accepted physics to be her subject .

at last, this new girl aisha, got her lost identity .
so this was my short story,,,i know i know!!!it something "uth ke muh mein jire"hehe...

MORAL-"one should basically never lose hope else you will lose yourself "
finally , i take the leave of my loving readers, i know was bit too long and at some parts you might have got bored badly but still as i said , i HOPE you liked it by heart.
by-Tanjul Sarkar

MY FIRST POST !!!

This is my first post for my blog...ANTAS..!!!
ah! really it is a bit horrified condition. You will soon come to knw , why?
this is my first post with my first educational damn crapping failure . today was my first day of school after my final exams. we all expected to have some extra classes for class 12th but what we had was totally different.
teachers declared the names of students failing in the respective subjects n more horrifying ...they were going to give retests. i couldn't explain was was my condition that time. means , i wasn't knowing even what was going to happy. my heartbeats were as fast as " shatabdi express " . really !!!! my fingers were crossed. then slowly our chemistry teacher started reading out the names and then it was my name... my eyes were closed and only i could hear was " tanjul sarkar failed in physics ". actually i was aware of this fact that i am going to fail in this subject but retest !!! . it was totally unexpected. :(
i was really feeling strange within me.
this was also true that i wasn't the only one who was going to give the retest but still for me " i was  alone in the battlefield where i  was going to start a battle with my so called enemy PHYSICS " seriously !!!

but still, after i heard this news, i felt that something has changed in me. the first thing i have passed in chemistry and maths finally. i am saying this because i kept failing the whole year in the three main subjects-physics , chemistry and maths...i totally lost faith in me.i just  cried and cried and cried . all started making fun of me . i started believing that science and me have no connection.
but then my friends mishika, pulkit and my god my mother helped me out of this nightmare i was going through. because of their faith and support  i again gained that self confidence i had lost and started improving my study skill.
today when i heard of this shocking news, i didn't cry. though i got goosebumps but still i didn't cry. may be this was because now i have learn tot deal with such situations . but ya this is for sure that i am gonna really do well. huh ! this was all about my day today.

WILL BE BACK !!!